Nobody knows how badly I want this. It’s not only a matter of pride and being on top, it’s the sense of accomplishment I’ve been yearning for. I don’t feel important, I don’t feel accomplished, I don’t feel satisfied, and I won’t feel that way until I reach this goal. I’m so close, yet so far.
"We need stressful days in order to be happy. We need days when we get zero sleep and are working tirelessly on a deadline. Because if we didn’t, the lazy days wouldn’t feel good … We need to always be working towards something in order to feel useful and have a sense of purpose."
— Ryan O’Connell, Things You Need in Order to Stay Happy (via emily-chen)
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Running away from your problems? They’ll catch up to you sooner or later. Sleeping away your problems? They’ll still be there when you wake up.
Do something about it. Easier said than done though, correct?
And now I remember the reason why I can’t trust you.
I proved you wrong and I’m feeling fucking fantastic.
I need to learn the differentiate the people who genuinely care about me and my problems and the people who are just curious about what’s happening.
I learned plenty during these past few years. Although I wasn’t exactly the happiest person two years ago, I’m definitely glad I went through the things I went through. As cliche as this sounds, it really did shape me to the person I am today. I am now mentally strong and my head’s held high.
The girls who are just naturally cute and make you just want to hug and spin them around.
It’s a nice change for you to text me goodnight first.
Despite the fact that I was exhausted and limping throughout the day, I had a really good day. Last night’s sleep wasn’t exactly what you would call a “good night’s rest.” I only slept for about six hours since I kept tossing and turning. I woke up not even wanting to go to school, but the day went by pretty fast. I didn’t get assigned all that much worked and I pretty much finished everything that’s due tomorrow. But I’m finishing assignments that’re due in a couple days just because I have the time to.
Throughout school I was limping because of my left foot, but surprisingly I was still able to run 8 miles and do the leg/core workouts without any unbearable pain. I literally had little to none, but I did have a little discomfort walking afterwards, but I’m icing right now so I should be fine. It felt so nice joking around with the Varsity guys again since they literally haven’t been to practice over break, only a few times. I missed them and their company a lot, they seem to always lighten up my mood.
I’m off to a really good start so far and I’m hoping it’ll stay this way. As long as I put in hard work and stray away from laziness, right? Well time to visit this work, so I can watch Pretty Little Liars later tonight. Who doesn’t love that show?! I mean drop dead sexy girls and a really good plot, what more can you ask for?
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I can’t wait until my foot is healed, so my coach will actually let me run. He’ll only let me do warm up jogs because I don’t go fast. Today was ridiculously hard though since my upper body is pretty weak, 10 sets of 10 reps bench press, 10 pull ups, 10 push ups. It took me 53 minutes -__- And I had the weight vest on while doing them :(
He said I already have leg strength and speed, I just need to work on my core so that I’ll get even faster. So I guess that’s what I’m going to be doing while my foot is healing. I hope it heals soon because my days feel so incomplete.. I swear I get one injury after another.
You can’t live life being scared that people will hurt you.
